je veux te parler en français un peu.
sous les draps. la couverture.
sous tes bras.
i think you’d like me without make up on.
"tu viens d’ou?"
"dit-moi d’ou je viens. écoute l’accent."
"bon. moi non plus."
as soon as there is a line, i want to cross it.
imagine what its like to be an eagle. cut my
thumb open on a bottle of red wine so i’m
drinking the blood and the body. the ghosts
stuck inside these heavy rings on my knuckles
are coming out, bbys. can you hear the screams?
i walked around like a skeleton for three nights. 206 plus bones. ill dance on your front porch. ill kiss your moon. marb lights. i’m dancing and you’re telling me “kelsey sit down. sit down” and i’m telling you “i don’t listen to boys. silly silly boys.” black velvet heels and so many bones. why am i always the one who was to leave the party because someone’s in love?
i dont know how to wake up lately.
wanna dance on balconies? wanna kiss my freckles? red lollipop. let’s be fifteen. touching is electric. i can’t look at your face. too nice. make you velveeta. watch your hair curl. let’s drink gin. let’s kiss the moon from my bed. let’s race to the end of the hall and then shake like crazy and scream about it. get high and run at full speed through the dark. i feel like i’m getting old.
caramel. salty. evergreens. swallowed.
upside down. pillows. purple. gin and
coke. black lake. cold stones. heartbeat.
half a bottle of red wine and a gold ring on my middle finger.
i fall in love with people’s eyelashes. that’s not even poetic.
that’s just a billion days of being alive and trying to pay attention.
i cant stop looking at the sky
I’m brushing my teeth at the window
i feel like i can’t blink
i have nightmares every night that i drop my iphone and the screen cracks. some people didnt eat today. if a mosquito bites me, i can say fuck you i got my malaria shot in 2009. its like britney said. now i’m stronger than yesterday.
at the point where i want to walk until i dont know anything but suddenly just dont care about that anymore. i want to kiss something like the sun or a face or eyelashes. i want to smoke your cigarettes. i want to kiss the smoke that slips out of your mouth. i want to scream so loud that you cant even hear it anymore.